” I need $ for beer, pot, and hooker”


Ha ha ha. Got you. That was what this old hippies sign said that was begging for money one time when I was on Dead Tour. Today in recovery, and everyday for that matter, is all about honesty. I gave that man five bucks simply because he was honest, We all know what they are gonna spend that money on, Fuck I was that guy for years, so I KNOW! It is not just a requirement in recovery to honest at all cost for me it is just the right thing to do. It feels good to be honest, refreshing almost. Lying is like getting a gremlin wet, More problems. Yeah, I know i am old I just used the Gremlins as a reference. Today, if I catch myself in a lie, which does not happen to often, because I dont lie, I do what is right and correct it. I am so good at lying its ridiculous. I mastered it at a young age and then perfected it and took it to a level few could understand. I used to be a man of a million faces. A million stories and lies and whatever you needed to hear to open your wallet or purse up to my sick ass diseases. My twisted up needs that were fed off of the money from good people that I lied to. Today is different, I am honest in everything I do. If I offend you with the brutal ways I am honest or what I am honest about, I am not sorry, but maybe you should go and read some Dr. Suess books cuz shit is real in here. So today, and everyday after this, be honest. Be honest with yourself first and foremost. Just try it. It might not come easy at first, but thats okay. Putting needles in my arm was hard for me at first, but I figured it out. Be happy today. Make Monday your bitch and make it beg YOU for it to be over, then give it to her again! To those of you out there in the grip of it, I pray that today is the day your life changes for the better as mine has! God Bless!

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