Good Morning. Well, I have officially grabbed a gear and put it to the wood! Doing things I never thought I would, or would be able to. I just joined an organization on campus that will open more doors for me than I ever dreamed of. When it is official and I get pinned I will post pictures and let you all in on the specifics. I am not holding back anymore. I started this semester off great, but I’m gonna finish strong as hell. Deans list is just the tip of the iceberg. I am only talking about all this in case there is someone out there who thinks they have to accept whatever it is that they have been. So not the case. I am doing things that have never been done in my family, to my knowledge. 155 days ago I was just another statistic, ready and eagerly awaiting death. Lost, hurting, confused, and fed up with the way my life was going and the stars I was given. I had no clue what to do or where to go. All I knew was how to be an outlaw, get high, and be a shifty little shit. So when I say the time is now what I mean is I am at a crossroad in my life. Not just any crossroad, but THE crossroad. The choices I make today will change my life forever. I want this change to be a positive one obviously, but also the best one possible. I mean, I want to make sure what I decide now, in six months I’m not like shit I should have went the other route. I can only hope those reading this, if you are in a bad way or just fed up, this will inspire you to change what you can to better yourself and your future. Life is so beautiful for me today. I feel like I have won the lottery. I have the best girl in the world who is responsible for a great deal of my inspiration. I wake up like an 8-year-old on Xmas morning, every day. Even my sleep is starting to level off with the help of some all natural supplements and a technique me and my girlfriend use since we can not be together at night when we use it and life doesn’t get in the way. I do not remember if I posted it on here or my other blog, but I wrote a paper for an English class about changing your stars. It has a lot to say about me, where I came from, and where I am today. Well, where I was when I wrote it because so much has changed since then even. I wake up a little different each day. I am a little better than the day before. God is working his miracle in me so I can be there for others in need. It only hurts when I let it today. I don’t have to allow drugs and negativity run my life. I have accepted my past and moved on. So when I say the time is now, I mean the clock is ticking on tomorrow. I don’t wanna feel like a squirrel who hasn’t collected nuts all summer. I am constantly doing things for my future and that of the family I am ready to start. Don’t become the complacent sheep and wander around in life accepting what you think is your predetermined path. Take the steps to allow the organic unfolding of processes that God is going to give you. Change and hope exist. I am proof!rachel-and-jay. That is the link to the paper I wrote for my English class. I hope it helps those who need it. There is no better time than now. Tomorrow will quickly turn into next week, next month, next year, and never happens! To those of you out there in the grip of it, I pray that today is the day your life changes for the better as mine has! God Bless! If no one told you today, I love you!