Gift of Self

Good morning to all my faithful readers. I have never been comfortable in my own skin as they say until recently. I had a very abusive childhood that wrecked me emotionally. Those of you that may have known me from way back, or even today, know I have always  been on the smaller side of average. I always considered myself as an average  looking man as well. I also cry, a lot. I always have, but today I consider it a strength. While I was in active addiction I rarely felt anything but numb. So when I got clean and my feelings came back as they say, I was ready to deal with them this time. I almost anticipated  that moment most addicts dread, when your eyes meet your eyes in the mirror. I fell in love with the man I am becoming. It was in that moment I was truly reborn and became comfortable  in my own skin. The gift of self is probably  one of the best things to ever happen to me. It means so much more to me than just accepting  my outward psychical  appearance .  I’m  accepting who I am, who I was in all forms, flaws and all. If I was never an addict, I wouldn’t  be where and who I am today. I am a work in progress  folks. So give yourselves a break and truly explore who you are today. I wake up each day a little bit different  than the day before. I love myself today, Jason the recovering addict. To those of you out there in the grip of it, I pray that today is the day your life changes for the better as mine has. God bless! Today is smile all day saturday!!!img_20161209_214814

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