I’m Tapping Out

Good morning to all my faithful readers. Ha, had you all fooled. I am tapping out , but not in the way most would think. Today, with the power of choice, I am choosing to refuse all negativity and drama. This means inward as well as outward. I am making a commitment to change my way of thinking in a negative fashion to positive thoughts and actions all the time. Now, I said I am making a commitment to change, not that I have flipped some sort of magical switch and this just happens. My heart and emotions used to be blackened by hate and fear. They used to have twisted loyalties towards things I no longer wish to include in my life. I don’t mean just drugs here, but all that came with that lifestyle. I became used to living, allowing, and settling for things that were just plain toxic. Good things will come and go. Bad things, pain, and hurt will not last forever. The true inner peace I have found has helped me to see the strength I have to remain positive no matter what. To always seek out a positive from any and all situations. To be able to realize the difference from negative situations life may be throwing at me and negative consequences of past choices I have made. To better realize who and what is real or just a chameleon waiting to change up on me when their needs in life change. Life is this living breathing evolving thing that I must face every day all day long no matter what. It’s going to be painful. It is going to hurt sometimes, but if I look hard enough, I can always find a reason to smile. It’s smiles and cries, life is, just as I have said many times before. I cry, as some of you may or may not know, a lot. I am an emotional man full of passion. I wear my heart on my sleeve and refuse to change that. It is one of my qualities I obtain to be able to see things the way I do. I used to be confused about my tears, as I was unable to differentiate between happy tears, sad tears, and pure rage tears. I used to get so frustrated because of this. I saw crying, for any reason, as a sign of weakness. Today, though, I have come to realize what a gift from God this is.Sometimes I cry without knowing why. I can sit and let it happen today. Once I am able to figure out why I am crying, I then can decipher how to deal with it, if at all. To see what has brought me to tears and remember why. I also smile a lot these days and it feels good!!! To those of you out there in the grip of it, I pray that today is the day your life changes for the better as mine has and continues to. God Bless. If no one has told you yet, I love you and you matter!win_20161214_09_01_22_pro

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