Good morning to all that are reading this. A new day, a new start, and another day to make good decisions. Slept well, ate a good dinner, remain clean, jobs good, on track for the start of school, staying connected with NA and my sponsors, going to church. So why do I feel off center? What’s missing? What’s going on? This is gonna eat at me until I figure it out. I’ve been reading up on yin and yang lately. I read about a Chinese, I think it’s Chinese, philosophy about ones chi. It is said that it is that which gives life and what Jesus is to have blown with his breath into dust to produce Adam. Pretty cool stuff, I think. It’s said to be what differentiates a corpse from a human with a live soul. So, I guess it’s safe to say everyone that’s alive has their own chi. Mine changes, to a point. I mean, I have the same basic needs that need to be fulfilled, but what keeps me into it so to speak, changes I think. Maybe it doesn’t change but I just need more. My mind has an insatiable hunger for more. It’s exploding all day everyday. It’s to the point that people I love, and say they love me, admit they are haters. Wow! Guess I’m doing something right. Anyways, I am constantly on the hunt, seeking out more and different things to keep the fire Fed. This brings me to places in times I never imagined i would be. This has helped me succeed at things i never dreamed. It’s not enough! I want more. Living this life is still new to me so im open to any and all suggestions. To those of you out there in the grip of it, I pray that today is the day your life changes for the better as mine has and continues to. God Bless. I love you and you matter!