Hey, hello, and hi to all them true believers out there. Too often in my past attempts at gettin and staying clean I relapsed because of simply saying yes as a preprogrammed response to being offered.Even though I or you may make a call or take a call from the dope man or someone who is not conducive to my new lifestyle I have done nothing more than acted on a thought. I or you can still not go through with this or any maladaptive behavior. It is never too late! I and YOU DO NOT OWE THE DO NOT OWE THE DOPE MAN ANYTHING!!! I owe myself a chance at a life free from the desire to use drugs and alcohol to cloud my thought and perceptions of what and who is real! Turn around, hang up the phone, fuck, shut the phone off! Go to a meeting, go for a walk, go to sleep! Call that sponsor! Use that phone list! IT and they work I am living proof!!!! My phone number is on here and facebook and all over but here it is again, 574-440-2864! Call me! No judgments now or ever! I am not an ATM machine or a cab service, though. Hopelessness no longer has me by the fucking throat! Neither does the desire to use. Life is good, God is great, and hope continues to be my guiding light in recovery!!!! I will continue to stand in the gap for those that need it! 290 days and long motherfucking nights clean today baby!!! To those of you out there in the grip of it, I pray that today is the day your life changes forever as mine has and continues to. God Bless and stay up. I love you and you matter to me!!!