Good morning to all the true believers out there! Woke up clean again! 294 days. Not a big response to my post yesterday on sending out those accomplishments yet but I remain hopeful! I wake up all sorts of fucked up in the head sometimes, and then I just find my addiction fucking up my head some days too. I find that sometimes I do not have to silence it completely well I have come to realize I can’t and maybe never will be able to silence it along with other things in my life that fuck my head up worse than getting slammed in the nose ya know? I just need to turn the volume down on them or it. I only have one good ear so you would think this would be an easy task, yeah, not so much, The one ear just fucking rings! All day every day all night every night!!! Tinnitus, and it seems to be progressive as well. There is not a fucking thing I can do about it either! Serenity prayer right? Accept the things I cannot change. Somedays it rings so loud I think other people must be hearing this too! It knocks my balance off and all sorts of other fun stuff. Some days I think about what I can hit myself in the head with that will knock me out and not split my head open because if this FUCKING RINGING doesn’t stop!!!! Yeah its rough, but I maintain. This is one of the reasons I always have earbuds in. It is a distraction for me, to have something other than ringing in my ear because FUCK! So today I will just turn the volume down on life little things that try to fuck me all up like getting slammed in the nose! To those of you out there in the grip of it, I pray that today is the day your life changes forever as mine has and continues to! God Bless and stay up. I love you and you matter to me!