good morning true believers! What a day yesterday man for real! What a party! What a turn out! The love and support I received and felt this past year and all day yesterday is unexplainable. This TIME last year was when i first me miss Toni, my sponsor and soon much more! This time last year I was pondering the most painless way to commit suicide. This TIME last year i was lost, hurt and confused. This TIME last year boy! I’ve done a lot of terrible things in my life yes, I admit it, but in this last fucking year I have accomplished some really amazing things too! I’ve smashed some bull shit fucking stigmas! I’ve broken some records! I’ve set the bar on a few things. I’ve cried a lot! I’ve laughed a lot! I’ve sat there blank a lot! Guess what? I’ve lived! I’m learning this new life. I live life today on life’s terms! I no longer struggle with the desire to use drugs or alcohol.I am so grateful for life today! If I had one wish, it would be that my Dad was still alive to see this, to share this with Me! Recovery is possible! I am proof! I am jay, and i am an addict! Tomorrow is my actual clean time birthday. 364 mean ass fucking days clean today!so please, tomorrow is national be #jaystrong day! So help an addict! Huh an addict! People underestimate the power of a simple hug! Tomorrow, be strong! Even if I’m doing so you have to ask for help or any other thing that you used to define as weak. Be #jaystrong! To those of you out there in the grip, i pray that today is the day your life changes forever as mine has and co tinues to! God Bless and stay up! I love you and you matter to me!just couldn’t end this without expressing my gratitude to everyone that has walked along this path with me! Miss Toni, I am alive today because of you and you only! Much love!