G’morning.  One year ago today is when I began to live. Every single second of every single day this past year has been a fight,  no, THE FIGHT of my life! The non addicts out there may not understand as may some of you addicts even. So I’ll try to break it down. I wake up everyday, EVERYDAY, I’in cloud of doubt. I make that jump I talk about out of the plane knowing when i land it’s going to be in a sea of fears! There’s no use running from it because it’s faster. There’s no use fighting it because it’s stronger. So I get up. And I jump!scared for my life. I roll the dice. What’s the alternative? I smile, i cry, I laugh, I’m dying inside. I’m happy. I’m sad. Im things i haven’t yet identified. I am Jay, and i am an addict! It’s not easy by any means. It’s not always fun. But i do it. Because i know the alternative. Demons on speed, the devil on LSD.  Spread this post like wildfire! I want to smash this fucking stigma that heroin addicts can’t recover or are always what they once became. Make today national #jaystrong day! Thank you to all that have helped me along my way. Those who have helped me find a route when i was in that cloud of do it. The list is too long and distinguished but Miss Toni, you my friend, you are what made this possible. The world needs more people like you in it! Thank you my friend! You are my guardian angel and so much more! I truly believe God made you to save me specifically!  Ima go now and swim in this sea of fear! To those of you out there in the grip of it, I pray that today is the day your life changes for the better as mine has and continues to! God Bless and stay up. I love you and you matter to me!received_41606070877771320170605_050808.jpg

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