Hey, hi, and hello out there. I posted a song before this post that just so happened to be the next one up to play on Pandora when I turned my phone on this morning and it hit home with me I guess. How many more times is a question I can ask myself about a lot of things in life today and not get scared and run? I don’t just mean run from yesterday and today but run from my future either.
How many more times? Just think about it for a second, just one second…… It has a ring to it, no? I have recently been introduced to some people for the first time again and I think this happened for a reason. One very influential and wise man in particular. Not sure if he wants his name attached to this blog so he will remain nameless for that reason only. I bought the newspaper again this morning so I would not be uninformed but I am tired of being misinformed with half-truths and bull shit too though. How many more times? I have recently changed my major in school as to pursue a career in writing as well.
I am in no way saying that my way of thinking is the only way or the right way for that matter. What you know about life Blackwell? Not much! What you know about love Blackwell? Even less! I do know a few things though as I am smarter than I look and have grown tired of only being seen as Jay the heroin addict. I am so much more and soon the world will see. How many more times, right?
I will not stop. I will not slow or ease my thinking and learning and growing. Who are you in the matter? There is truth in a sunrise and the sunset no longer defeats me!
I no longer accept superficial interpretations or answers. I have all too often found myself in a limiting situation and assumed it was out of my control. I was naive and inaccurate in what was my personal freedom. How much have I contributed to these circumstances? What choices do I need to make differently? What is better, knowledge or imagination? Depends on who you ask I guess.
I am no longer “sleepwalking” my way through life caught in that existential vacuum. Think while it is still free! Cogito, ergo sum!
To those of you out there in the grip, I hope. We do recover! Look around! Let me in or let me down! Stay up. I love you and you matter to me!