Hey, hi, and hello out there! I fucking made it! I fucking made it! I had to say it twice! You see, turning 40 is bitter for most, bittersweet for others. Not me, not now, not today, NOT EVER!!! I used to see people and they would say, “I thought you died man” or “holy shit! You’re still alive?!!!” I am not joking or exaggerating this one bit!
I survived it all!!!! And with a motherfucking smile! and a big ole FUCK YOU to the ones that had doubt. To the ones who hated on me or lied to me or whatever! I made it!
I survived growing up in my house with my old man as abusive as he was! I survived the streets where we lived as a child, Harvey, East side of Chicago, Cal City. I survived it! I survived the Marine Corps! I survived being homeless on the streets of Gary Indiana! I survived a very heavy three gram a day Heroin habit! I survived it! I beat Hep C, WITHOUT MEDICATION!!!!!! I survived it all! Evey single one of the worst fucking days I have ever imagined, I SURVIVED!
Happy fucking birthday to me! If I can only just survive today though, just today!
To those of you out there in the grip, I hope. We do recover! Look around! Let me in or let me down. Stay up. Stay human! I love you and you matter to me!