In The End.


In The End, huh? Is this supposed to be happening, or is it meant to happen after forever? Whatever is, after forever?! When I think about this I realize I have lost my fucken grip, and I may not get it back, no, never…

How does one explain the unexplainable? The same way I guess you acquire the taste for the unfavorable! I root for the bad guy in the movies!

This forever thing though…

It has always been there in the beginning, but impossible to find as the end draws near, stricken with panic and overrun by fear!!!!!!

I took one of my dreams off of my shelf and was asked, in order to live are you not killing just killing yourself?

So, we go to “In The End”. In the beginning, we started out as friends. I told you this would end up happening…

I’m fucken brOKen! I have an apartment but I am fucken homeless! I laid down in bed last night and died for the LAST fucken time and this time was with a different mistress.

I’ve discovered that I do not require something to blow life back into me each morning if I quit giving my life away each night and stop giving up and put up a fucking fight!

My Soul has left me. It’s up there roaming. I will not stop until it is what I am looking for that I begin finding; like a rabid dog, foaming”’

How is the lightning any different than the thunder? Will I ever get above or am I destined to live below, under? My side of the trax is funner!

JJust starting to realize that this rolling darkness is not my enemy but my only friend, my own personal fucking thunder!

My Love comes at a high cost and is never free! I just cut myself so I could see myself bleed! I needed something good to read! I needed to set myself free! I can only hope that I will have another night to live, another night to be alive and define my definition of being free, to be still and just breathe…

Sometimes goodbye is the only way! I have searched but cannot find the words to say what could make this possible in any other way….confusion, smoke and mirrors, delusions…

I have no regrets but, I do have secrets! No room for penance and I could give a shit to confess!

The Sun didn’t set for me down in Mexico and the Sunrise is no longer for you-LET THIS GO!!!

I’m an easy man to talk to but, I know someone who ain’t though and that someone is you!

                  !!!?HOW DO YOU STOP SOMETHING THAT IS OUT OF CONTROL?!!!

Things went from bad to worse! I ain’t dead but I think I am dying! Won’t you please call a hearse?

I miss my Soul! I miss the illusion of having control! I wish you would have met me before…it may have left for a while, my Soul, but, I cannot be bought and refuse to allow myself to be SOULD!

You pursue me relentlessly, and it is you that I want with me! Why am I the only one that can see this???

I DON’T LOKE THE WAY YOUR LIES TASTE. I HAVE WITNESSED AS WELL AS TESTED YOUR LOYALTIES! I HAVE WATCHED YOU QUESTION YOUR FAITH AND IT IS NO MORE THAN I CAN STAND LET ALONE, WILL I TAKE! I AM NOT THE PHONY HERE, YOU ARE THE FAKE!

My anger is my gift and it does not come free. The bill has been paid using time as the currency…

To be continued…

Stay up. Stay Human. #builtnotbought Are you kind?screenshot_20180731-194925~31253611276..jpg

 

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