The Good Life…

There are times when I need to, but it feels like I can.t even breath.

There are times when I need you, I long for your touch, but most days, I can’t stand it, it’s too much…

There are times when I laugh, but that ain’t from happiness,no. It’s because of the madness…

I’m not, sometimes, what you see. I stand here smiling, but have in fact gotten lost inside of the emptiness inside of me…

Some might say, “Jay, you live the good life”! Well, maybe, but in comparison it’s not really comparable to the real parable!

There still exists this beast, this monster, inside of me. It used to feed on my Soul, but today, it eats from a bowl. I’m constantly forced to be something or someone I’n not in order to give it all that I’ve got. Sometimes, I put different parts of me into that bowl, and, I’m left to fill this hole. Wandering! I’m just an outside and want to be left alone…

In times like these, WonderLust is a must!

Everyday I try and take back my life, but it ain’t easy. It’s a battle, it’s a fight!

It takes dedication. Oh yeah! Enter in medication, this fist full of pills! It’s nothing more than a crap shoot if you will!

I take what I have, what you gave, but most days they barely help keep me from my grave…

The grave, by definition, needs not to be defined, but allow me to redefine. The grave, it doesn’t have to be six feet deep. Sometimes, mine is when I’m on my own two feet. When I’m stumbling around on this emotional battleground. My SwitchBlade Angels nipping at my heels and whispering in my ear that fear is OK to feel…once again, I’m brOKen…

After stealing his thoughts, my own, yellow eyed, shadow I’m scared of because I’ve seen where he comes from…

Being this fucked up and emotionally scarred, I know, ain’t easy to see. So, everyday, I pretend to be what you want me to be, who it is you want to see…

~Cradled to The Grave~

~!The Good Life!~

Stay up. Stay human too. upside-down in a right side up world and i’m thinking about jumping!

#inthegrip #whiteknuckles #builtnotbought

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