Don’t Lean On Me!

what are you looking at? yeah, they are, you’re right, you bet! scars from another failed suicide attempt, and just from the other night! i may or may not have lost, but i won the right to fight another night…

i’m thinking of a year, it’s 1994 and my favorite shirt lay right there on the floor. naw girl, you can’t remember, as this was all long before you were born…

how do you measure the flame of a dead man’s Soul? i may not be dead, but i sure do feel like i’m dying and my flame it but a tiny spark that once raged outa control…

my head is the hammer, and my heart remains the nail. i pretend to be tough, but the truth is i’m ever so frail. a scared little boy, wandering around in this cold world, trying to not land on that third rail…

i’ve been busy, carving through the smoke and breaking the fucking mirrors that provide outside eyes with the misappropriate illusions that, in order to live and be happy, i must be in love with someone other than myself. all the while, i am battling paranoid delusions, that were the result of hiding in the shadows of another’s “love”…

there’s this ache inside of my stomach, that has turnt into what feels like a fire inside of my gut. it’s pretty clear to see, maybe not to you, but to me, that this is from all this fucking unnecessary anxiety. i refuse to be stuck inside of this Midwestern Funk!

the truth is, i’m exhausted from you making me feel bad for not being able to give you something you’ve never had-i feel lower than my feet…

you are now suspicion~you have been re-named, as i see now, that there are no true rules to your game…

please, don’t hate me for the words you’ve just read, because i know this is not all “just in my head”!

i’m gonna hafta let you down, because i can no longer afford to ever do this again. my Soul’s adrift and my skin is too thin…

it’s been a business doing pleasure with you…

stay up; stay human too…

#builtnotbought #inthegrip #whiteknuckles #fightofmylife #fightformylife

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